Day 1 of #strala30--showing up for myself

What the heck does "showing up for yourself" mean?
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For a long time, it sounded to me like some crazy buzz words which were meant for super spiritual people---people who'd attained a high level of yogic study, meditation practices, or working under the tutelage of a guru--certainly not little ole me who hasn't done ANY of those things.
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In fact, when I'd hear coaches talk to me about "showing up for me", I just rolled my eyes. I mean, I was here in my physical body, I showed up by waking up. I wasn't ready to take it any further than that.
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But, now I'm beginning to see the phrase in a different light. Yes, it is waking up daily to face your day. But, that's just the start. It's doing the things you've got to do in order to get you where you want to go.
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So, for example, the thing I have to do right now is HEAL from Candida and Mono. Those two items take all my energy and stamina. So, how I show up is this: I drink my teas. I take my myriad of supplements (7 in morning, 4 at noon, 7 at dinner, then 4 more interspersed throughout the day). I sleep when my body needs sleep. I lay down and rest on my days off. I cook all of my own meals which are #candidafriendly. I grocery shop almost daily to get the freshest produce and meats available to me. I reconnect with myself. I breathe. I write. I pray. I sit in silence (though I love music, my ears are very sensitive to sound these days). I go to my doctors appointments. I'm
honest to others about how I feel (because it changes everyday). I snuggle my pup. I let myself be where I'm at. I am not making decisions about my future because I know all my chemicals and chemistry inside of me is changing. I'm just being.
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Is this easy? Heck no. It would be easy to go and grab the dairy free ice cream and sit down and eat the carton. It would be easy to go back to eating tortilla chips and corn products. It would be easy to walk away from this. Say screw this healing protocol and go back to life when I was sleepwalking through it, bitching about everything going wrong in my life---and never doing anything about it.
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But, I WON'T. Because showing up for myself feels GOOD. Much better than any ole ice cream or chip binge would. I remind myself with each pill, with each tea, with each appointment, with each deep breath, with each journal entry---Brooke, I'm showing up for YOU. I love you and you deserve to heal. And I sink down into my bed, couch cushion, and even onto the floor with a pride I've not felt before.
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This is what showing up is. Doing what it takes to get better regardless if it's hard. Take a deep breath, thank yourself for being here and lean on your Angels and God for help. They'll help you. You'll help you. And through this, you'll get where you need to be. 🌟🐶