Today, I woke up feeling---down, tired, achy, and just plain raw. Like someone had run my soul over with sandpaper. I was angry and frustrated.
Recovering from #chronicEBV and #candida is NOT easy. Each day brings a different emotion to the surface. It can be frustrating. It can make me weary. It can make me feel alone.
But, in this new practice of ease, I'm just using these tough moments to breathe. I went into the bathroom at work today and spent just a few minutes tuning into my breath and clearing my mind. I remembered I don't have to plan the future, or rearrange the past. I only have right now.
And after my mini meditation today, I encountered a customer who had a story similar to mine. We commiserated together, shared a few laughs about our experiences, and both hurt that the other person is hurting.
Regardless if I ever see this woman again, I just want to say thank you universe. I needed to have this interaction today. To know I'm not the only one with good, ok, or very bad chronic illness days. I needed to laugh about our long list of supplements, and the foods we swore we'd never eat. I needed to give a hug and be hugged in return. Because we aren't ever alone, and the universe always shows us when we are feeling the loneliest.