Day 13 of #strala30-- Adjust my Expectations

In this practice, things in my world constantly change. Yesterday was a good energy day, today, well, was not. 😟
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I actually expected this whole Candida thing would be over and done with in like a month. I would just change my diet; do the protocol of supplements; and poof! all would be right again. I'd go on with my life. Easy peasy right?
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Actually, I'm wrong. It's not as simple as changing a diet or taking a myriad of pills. A hidden, underlying chronic Epstein Barr virus (which some call chronic fatigue syndrome) has been discovered. This diet has actually made me sicker. The fatigue isn't going away. It's frustrating. (I'm working on a blog post to talk about this--what happens when your protocol/diet isn't working...stay tuned)
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So, in practicing ease, I realized today I need to adjust my expectations. Life isn't cut and dry. And chronic illnesses require a lot of trial and error--with food, activity levels, pills, self care, etc. It's a lot of tuning inside and figuring out how you feel. It's a lot of breathing and stepping out in faith. I'm still learning to take each day as it comes. Being still. Hearing my own heartbeat. Praying. Trusting. And doing a lot of writing!