Day 14 of #strala30---Fear changes all

So, on Day 14, I have a confession--on some days, practicing ease goes out the window and is replaced by fear.
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Today, I've been fearful. Afraid of these physical symptoms. Afraid I've done real harm to my body. Afraid I'm not getting better. Heck, even afraid to GET better.
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Some days, fear takes over. It can run amuck over your intentions. Make me feel panicky and yucky. I get lost in research. I get lost in the what ifs. It's only been right now I realized its in my best interest to stop the craziness. Begin breathing again (pretty sure I have been shallow breathing all day long). Dive into my journal. And after that, read something fun. I'm getting into watching golf, so reading a golf magazine is really fun. It's going on my bucket list to learn how to play once I'm well 🏌⛳️