In order to move forward for things I've been praying for and dreaming of, I've got to be willing to give up the things I'm holding onto.
*If I want a loving relationship, I've got to release the long held insecurities which have held me back (ex. "I'm not good enough, I don't have enough, I'm not cool enough, I don't deserve this").
How does this releasing truly start? It's not with a new partner. It starts by loving me. And in releasing my insecurities, I get to focus on self love. I get to treat myself well, cook myself beautiful and nourishing food, and tap into my brilliant inner wisdom. I get to focus on what makes me light up instead of focusing solely on what a partner wants (I'm guilty of that in every romantic relationship I've had).
Another part of this release for more loving relationships is huge. So big it still brings me to tears. I will admit I've held onto to my exes, well, one ex in particular. I've held onto the hope for years he'd walk back through my door. I've held onto the chance we'd get to try again and this time, it would be so much better...it would, in fact, be forever. But, this hope has kept me from seeing the beauty and potential in other men. It's also kept me living in the past and staying stuck in a story which has already ended. So, as I say bye bye to this story, I'm opening up my lungs and can breathe for the first time in over three years. I feel free. And I want to focus on loving me and rebuilding the trust within myself, for myself, and by myself. Then, when that partner comes into my life, I can love him with all of me, the woman who's already whole without a partner. And loving like that will be beautiful, inspiring, and long lasting.
*if I want to be more financially stable then I need to let go of those mindsets which have held me back. The feelings of not deserving of success have permeated every decision I've made. It's reflected itself in how I self sabatage my economic and entrepreneurial opportunities. It also goes back to not feeling good enough. You know what, I failed a national exam 5 times....5. Each time I received my results, I felt more deflated and lower than dirt. I felt my worth was tied up in those results. And my career choices have reflected this feeling. My relationships with coworkers and bosses have reflected this. But I'm so ready to pitch these fears and move forward. I can do this. I can step into my power and own who I am...and make NO apologies for it.
You can do this too. You can step into your power. You can own your prowess. How? By owning where you are currently. By seeing all of those insecurities, fears, and long held beliefs. By recognizing you still cling to them. And then, letting them go. It can be symbolic: writing these feelings down and burning them/flushing them down the toilet/tossing into the garbage, etc. or physical: smashing something (safely--tennis racket into a pillow is nice!)/giving clothing/items away through donations/punching a punching bag, etc. Releasing is one of the most powerful things we can do. So, let's do this!
It's all about making space for the new. For the thought changes. For the releasing to happen. For the letting go to occur.
This is what I'm pledging to do. This is what I'm currently doing. This is one of the reasons why I believe I'm struggling with chronic fatigue. I needed to stop and look around at my current state in order to clear myself for my massive move forward.
Will you pledge to move forward with me? Let's release and let go. 🤗