Returning To my heArt

Returning to my heart.
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I shared with y'all on my blog how much this Anti Candida Diet had really brought up my old eating disorder mindset. And that it absolutely completely scared me to see that side of me come out again.
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So, last night I had an epiphany. Instead of running from the thoughts, or actually allowing that inner mean girl to direct my every move down a very dangerous path, I decided to go to what I knew worked.
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I decided to just turn around and face the thoughts and go back to what healed--yoga.
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I've really run away from yoga since last year, somehow convincing myself I couldn't do it right, I wasn't worthy of being called a yogi, and thinking I'd never measure up to my friends who are yoga instructors (pretty much the antithesis of yogic thought).
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I thought the yoga I'd immersed myself in since 2012 was enough to keep me healed. But, healing is done in layers, and it's time for me to remove another layer of my hurt and heal it. This illness has me feeling super exposed, vulnerable, and weak in ways I've never felt before. All the more reason to tune inward and work on healing with ease, simple movements, breath, and mantra.
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So expect to see a return to my mat on a regular basis. I'm just going to practice without real expectation as to how my body will react. I'm not going to strive to crank into poses, just going to breathe and move from my heartbeat. It's all I can do and it's how I will connect to me as I'm balancing my new diet and lifestyle. Won't you come with me??